Willow’s Done

•December 20, 2013 • Leave a Comment

Our Willow drove me to her last day of high school this morning. My bittersweet tears dropped as I rode along.

Flashes and a flood of memories with her over her lifetime piled into my conscience all at once. The emotions I’ve felt about this day are very similar to that of when I had to leave her at daycare when she was 2yrs. old. It was heart shattering for me to do. I had so many questions of whether she was ready. I had no answers for my questions of whether we were ready to seperate as mother and daughter either. We have always and forever had so much fun together. I live and love being a Mom! Sometimes she hates me and that’s alright, I love her enough to let her hate me. Lol! Bottom line, it sucked to leave her at daycare! Although I knew she desperately needed socializing with other kids, because she told me so. Lol.

Willow is a wise, determined, intuitively confident beautiful and brilliant soul.
My little Willow Fawn turned 5yrs. old and two months later she was ready to start kindergarten as the youngest in her class. Now, still being the youngest in age in her class, she is graduating highschool early. So very smart she is and always has been. I’m such a proud Momma.

I know what Willow has endured. I’ve lived it. I know where she’s been and the battles that have tried to detour her in every way possible. As her Momma I have felt the endless distractions that have raised their prying, stealthy, consistent bullshit ways. I’m proud of you Willow Fawn for telling them all to fuck off with a smile of powerful determination. May you hold your head high and honor yourself, you have made it through by following through.

I love you gorgeous Willow Fawn fairy! Thank you for honoring me as a Momma. Thank you for giving me a reason to live and to savor every heart beat of life I get to experience with you, my daughter. I choose to soak in every second by being present within your life. Many distractions have reared their heads at me for doing so as well. I too tell them to fuck off with a smile of assured determination.

Watching you become the young woman that you are is absolutely the most mesmerizing magical experience I could ever fathom! I love you sweet daughter! Stay true and stay you! Safe sound love wrapped around you always precious bold warrioress! May you positively light the world with and kick ass! I love you, Your Momma
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Slate and Harley

•December 2, 2013 • Leave a Comment

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Confident Attitudes

•September 26, 2013 • Leave a Comment
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My lovely daughters

My lovely daughters! Had to catch a smidge of what I’m shown on the daily. I can’t wait until they are shown the same from their kids one day! ūüėČ

I’ll Stand For You

•January 19, 2012 • Leave a Comment

Thank you Matt. Thank you for when we were in college, for allowing me to be the first person you told that you are gay.  I miss you my friend. My thoughts of you I hold so close. Thank you for trusting me with you. Still today over 20 years has ventured by and I feel honored. I had your back then and I have your back for always my friend.  I am proud of you and I continue to fight for your rights. Wherever you may be I want you to know that forever I will stand by the side of equality even if I stand by myself. Many times I have stood by myself and instead of running with fright, I kiss the fear on the head and wish it a goodnight.

Lunch To My Love

•May 5, 2011 • 3 Comments

I got to take some lunch to my sweetheart and his trusted crew. 

Her Majesty, Rig #127 admired from afar.

King Tut

and the environment inwhich they all soar  beyond!  Thank you all for all that you do.

To Be A Momma

•May 1, 2011 • 1 Comment

Because I miss you both so much. I hope¬†Willow Fawn and Dawn Marie¬†know how proud I am of them. I hope they know that they are so very loved. I hope they know how much I love and cherish their dad. I hope they know how fascinating he is as a¬†man as a friend¬†as a partner.¬†It doesn’t matter to me what place they get in a competition. It doesn’t matter if they skip lines for a monologue read. What matters to me is that they feel empowered and positive about themselves. That they know deep within themselves that they are worth all that is beautiful.¬†I hope¬†they know they¬†can always come to me for a smile, for words of encouragement, for peace of mind and reassurance, for a home cooked meal and laughter, for a safe and gentle place to stay. I hope they know how gorgeous they are inside their soul and out. I hope they know that¬†they deserve respect,¬†truth,¬†love,¬†empathy, and loyalty not only¬†from others, but from within¬†themselves.¬†I hope they know that I will always wipe their tears and soothe their¬†worries with a sweet lullaby. I hope they know that I will always love them unconditionally.¬†¬†I hope they know that I will forever do my best to continue learning how to become a better parent. I hope they know that I love watching them grow mentally, spiritually, physically¬†and become absolutely stunning young ladies inside and out. I hope they know that I adore being a Momma, that it’s one of the most fantastic feelings in the universe. I hope they know the voice of the source to me, is children laughing. I hope they know that I hope to be as graceful and as fabulous of a mom as my own momma. I thank you my mother, you are elegance and grace. You are truth and respect. You are encouraging and thoughtful. You are laughter and sunshine. You are hummingbirds and creative. You are fragile and empathy. You are shooting stars and validation. You are dancing moonbeams and music. You are hope and understanding. You are peaceful and loving. You are courageous and precise. Thank you for showing me the way, I love you…

Tis Grand

•April 28, 2011 • Leave a Comment